I'm sitting here trying to figure out what's going on. I started talking to a guy named Chris last week. Everything was great, for the week. We texted constnanly, we sent pictures (dirty ones included), he sweet talked me to death. "You are my dream girl, you are so beautiful, i want to be with you.. etc, etc." We met on Monday night because he couldn't wait til' Tuesday night when we were supposed to see each other. He surprised me at the library and we sat outside and talked on my break, he hung out with me until the library closed. We went out to the beach after, and things seemed to be going okay. We kissed. (I think I definately pushed for it more than him). --I could be just paranoid.
After the evening was over, we continued the texting per usual, and was excited about the following night.
Tuesday came, and we went out for a very nice dinner at Ciao Baby. I got all dressed up in a very revealing dress, which was all I think he focused on. Dinner was very nice though, and we laughed. But that's all we did for the night. Laugh. I tried to talk to him about somewhat serious things. Just, ''what do your parents do?" and he answered me with: "sex.'' It was like that the whole evening, me trying to get him to answer a question appropriately, and him making a joke out of everything. I just didn't understand it. I still don't.
After dinner, we decided to go to the beach again. Where again things were akward because he barely spoke. He was extremely goofy. I mean don't get me wrong, he is a very funny guy. But it's REALLY goofy stuff. Like, " you didn't make me waffles.'' Just things where you kinda sit back and are like: "Um, what?" I was having a good time, but I didn't feel like LAUGHING about EVERYTHING like he was constanly. We kissed for a little bit, but I wanted more because 1.) he's a good kisser 2.) I was bored and 3.) He kinda wasn't making sense with his jokes.
I wound up giving him head in the backseat as a result. Yes, I know, not the most smartest thing I could have done. Afterwards, more of the same weird laughing and giddy goofy shit continued, with him singing to me and I was silent on the way home.
He held my hand which was nice, I just wish he was more calm.
The next day was where things got even weirder. He barely texted me throughout the day and when he did, it was random things like : "You don't want to kiss me!" and when I would text him back, he wouldn't answer me for another 2 hours or so and it would be another random comment. Things are just getting weirder and weirder.
I had went into bed at 11:30 PM last night, because I had been up this past week until 3:30 AM talking to him, so needless to say I was exhausted. He texted me and said: "Boob, what are you doing?" I said: "I'm not a boob." He said, "Okay, I'm sorry :(" I said, "Chris, do you not want to see me anymore?" He said: "I didn't say that boob" I said, "Okay I'm just getting a weird vibe." He said, "Why? You're silly." I said, "So, um you still like me?" And he said: "Yea (some weird pet name)."
Today, same thing kinda. I had called him at 1:45 PM and didn't realize he was still at work, and he said he'd text me after work. I wrote him back and said: "Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't realize you were at work." He wroet me back and said: "It's okay beautiful." So I figured things we're getting back to normal. But then I asked him if he'd like to come over and watch a movie tonight or something, and he wrote back saying: "Yea we'll see boob" I said, "K.." and He said: "Mwah!" I've tried talking to him since, but things are extremely weird and I can't figure it out. It's really annoying me.
People have asked me if I even care since I only went out twice, and I obviously do. I like him yeah. But is he another liar? Another smooth talker? I really can't tell anything at this point. Guys like to completely change on me and I'm not sure what to do.
Of course I'm paranoid, with what happened with Brad & Matt. Maybe I shouldn't care so much so soon, but I'm just that type of person.
I'm feeling pretty down because I hate feeling like I'm being tossed around, which is EXACTLY why I got out of my last relationship.
I basically want a lot more than what I'm getting out of life right now.
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